Right now I feel so damn happy, but I know I've felt this way at least one thousand times before, but I want to say it's the first time in my life, because these obstructions and chaos cut me like a knife, till those good feeling just fade away and that happiness goes ignored.

So please don't tell me that I'm fine, just because I'm feeling down and out doesn't mean I'll stay entwined in these bad thoughts that loom just like ominous structures that make my heart palpitate till it feels like it might rupture, and one of these days, that damn rut will end I'll be happy for a minute but then back in it once again, and I know that I'll rise up just because I need a breath because it feels like I am drowning or maybe I'm just depressed, but if you've seen that ray of hope just once you'll learn to love the fact that your a mess.

We all have faults that we need to change, but if you focus way to hard on them they become part of the chain, and what a pin, to see your efforts go in vain, it makes you wish you'd go and take a bullet and go blow out your brains.
So why must I feel like I should die?
This is punishment and cruel just because I was given life.
But NO, I won't be caught in the undertow, because every cycle has to have a rise to a point before it falls.

So please don't tell me that I'm fine, just because I'm feeling down and out doesn't mean I'll stay entwined in these bad thoughts that loom just like ominous structures that make my heart palpitate till it feels like it might rupture, and one of these days, that damn rut will end I'll be happy for a minute but then back in it once again, and I know that I'll rise up just because I need a breath because it feels like I am drowning or maybe I'm just depressed, but if you've seen that ray of hope just once you'll learn to love the fact that your a mess.
If you've seen that ray of hope just once you'll learn to love the fact you're trying your best.